You Can Do This! You Can Do This? You Can Do This?!

"You have to have confidence in your ability, and then be tough enough to follow through." -Rosalyn Carter
In May or June of 2004, I drove a huge moving truck (nothing like this but a little bigger and not to mention the fact that nothing fell out of the back) from Emporia, Kansas to Lawrence, Kansas. It was my first time driving since 1997. The weather was bad and not to mention that I was on a highway. James was in the car with me and we were praying make that James was praying like crazy making sure that everything was everything and with God by myside, I managed to get home. That was 2004. Again that was 2004. Fast forward to 2009. The last time that I drove anywhere was in 2004 before James and I got married. Once James and I got married, we moved here to Ithaca, New York and where we lived, everything was in walking distance and we didn't need a car. Now that James and I have moved to Odessa (where work is a half hour away), I have to drive in order to get to work. Today was the first time that I have driven since 2004 and let me tell you, I was totally scared. To be honest, I really don't know why I was scared. I knew how to get to Ithaca from Odessa, but to drive on that highway with all of those cars and James' father was right next to me telling me how good I was doing just killed it for me. He told me that I need to pick up the speed. I know that I can do this. I have the motivation and confidence to do this. I was talking to my co-workers about this and they told me it's understandable that I would freak out like this and I will get the hang of this soon. Even James told me that he wasn't disappointed in me or anything. In fact, he figured that I would do this today.
I just feel very disappointed in myself for freaking out the way that I did. I was 12 yes 12 miles away towards Ithaca before my father-in-law told me to pull over so he can drive (he was afraid that I was going to be late getting into work). James knows that I can do this and I am destined and determined to do this. In fact, I am hoping by the time that I turn 30 (which will be next month on the 23rd) I will beat this thing and kick it to the curb!
I don't ever want to be pulled over by the cops. The last time that I got pulled over by the cops was when my hazard lights weren't working and the Police Officer just gave me a warning. I just wanted to rant and I had no other place to do it so I decided to write on here. With God and James by myside, I know I can do this! I know I can do this? I know that I can do this?! Until next time, have a good night and God bless!