You Can Do This! You Can Do This? You Can Do This?!

"You have to have confidence in your ability, and then be tough enough to follow through." -Rosalyn Carter
In May or June of 2004, I drove a huge moving truck (nothing like this but a little bigger and not to mention the fact that nothing fell out of the back) from Emporia, Kansas to Lawrence, Kansas. It was my first time driving since 1997. The weather was bad and not to mention that I was on a highway. James was in the car with me and we were praying make that James was praying like crazy making sure that everything was everything and with God by myside, I managed to get home. That was 2004. Again that was 2004. Fast forward to 2009. The last time that I drove anywhere was in 2004 before James and I got married. Once James and I got married, we moved here to Ithaca, New York and where we lived, everything was in walking distance and we didn't need a car. Now that James and I have moved to Odessa (where work is a half hour away), I have to drive in order to get to work. Today was the first time that I have driven since 2004 and let me tell you, I was totally scared. To be honest, I really don't know why I was scared. I knew how to get to Ithaca from Odessa, but to drive on that highway with all of those cars and James' father was right next to me telling me how good I was doing just killed it for me. He told me that I need to pick up the speed. I know that I can do this. I have the motivation and confidence to do this. I was talking to my co-workers about this and they told me it's understandable that I would freak out like this and I will get the hang of this soon. Even James told me that he wasn't disappointed in me or anything. In fact, he figured that I would do this today.
I just feel very disappointed in myself for freaking out the way that I did. I was 12 yes 12 miles away towards Ithaca before my father-in-law told me to pull over so he can drive (he was afraid that I was going to be late getting into work). James knows that I can do this and I am destined and determined to do this. In fact, I am hoping by the time that I turn 30 (which will be next month on the 23rd) I will beat this thing and kick it to the curb!
I don't ever want to be pulled over by the cops. The last time that I got pulled over by the cops was when my hazard lights weren't working and the Police Officer just gave me a warning. I just wanted to rant and I had no other place to do it so I decided to write on here. With God and James by myside, I know I can do this! I know I can do this? I know that I can do this?! Until next time, have a good night and God bless!

Welcome to...Odessa?!

Today is May 2, 2009. This is my first Saturday here in Odessa and my first post for the month of May. Work this past week was crazy and hectic. I just don't have the words to describe it, but that all I know is that I am just glad that today is Saturday and I don't have to return until Monday. Yesterday, one Technician called off and talk about bad timing. The other Technician and I came in at the same time and besides the fact that she was my ride home, I couldn't stay any longer because we weren't supposed to have any overtime. Then the Pharmacist decided to call his boss to let him know that was going to be by himself for one yes one hour and no one was going to be back there to help him. I felt bad at first, but then I realized that this was going to be his first and only time to prove that he can handle being by himself even if it's only for an hour. I just hope that he did okay for that hour alone. The other Technician didn't seem to care that he was going to be by himself; in fact, I think that she wanted to see him suffer.
Today like I said before today is my first day here in Odessa and let me tell you, it's an adventure in itself. From seeing Wild Turkeys cross the roads to hearing absolutely nothing going by (meaning cars or people). I just hope and pray that I can get used to driving out here from driving to work to driving anywhere. I know I can I just need the motivation that's all.
I think that's all I am going to write about. I am sure that I am going to write more as the days progress, but right now this is all I have....for now. Until the next post, have a great weekend and God Bless!