Ch-ch-Changes!!

"Even while I protest the assembly-line production of our food, our songs, our language, and eventually our souls, I know that it was a rare home that baked good bread in the old days. Mother’s cooking was with rare exceptions poor, that good unpasteurized milk touched only by flies and bits of manure crawled with bacteria, the healthy old-time life was riddled with aches, sudden death from unknown causes, and that sweet local speech I mourn was the child of illiteracy and ignorance. It is the nature of a man as he grows older, a small bridge in time, to protest against change, particularly change for the better." -John Steinbeck
Yesterday when James came home from helping his friends set up for a music video that they are going to do today, I sat up with him until four in the morning just venting on how my life is going nowhere and I need a change--change of scenery, work, change of everything. In May, I will be living in Odessa, New York--change from Ithaca, New York. I really don't know what will happen to me because I have never lived out in the country before and they (meaning James' parents lived way out there) and I hope that I can adjust. I also told James last night or early this morning that I don't want to work for Wal-Mart for the rest of my life; I want to be a Nurse a Nurse in Nigeria or somewhere just as long as I am a Nurse. Sometimes I wonder if Iam changing for the best or for the worse. I really hope that I figure this out soon. On Thursday, I saw Kevin (the Pharmacist I used to work with) for the first time in almost two years and to see him was seeing my best friend--it was awesome! And to make it even better, he is coming back to Wal-Mart here in Ithaca as a Staff Pharmacist. I keep on saying that I want to transfer because I am sick of everything from Dennis to the fact that I have to do everything and I do mean everything. On January 23, it will mark five more months until I am the big 30. I have this funny feeling when I turn 30 that changes will happen. I mean I feel that I am changing already since I don't really hold anything back now and usually I just hold everything in and complain later. No more. I don't want to be a push-over anymore. Yesterday was a great example on how I am no longer a push-over. I won't get into details, but let's just say that I will not take any crap anymore.
Moving to Odessa from Ithaca will also mean that I will be driving everywhere and I do mean everywhere---to work, grocery store, to run errands, and the list goes on. I am looking forward to be driving again. It will be a change from walking everywhere not to mention that I will get to a certain destination faster and plus I won't have to wake up earlier. Then again, I may have to if I am not going to transfer.
This is the year 2009 which means that changes are going to happen. Whether it will mean me (my attitude), work, life, or just surroundings. I just know that changes are happening and like I wrote on my Facebook, I hope it will be for the better not for the worse.